Shalom...

Its time For Me to Let You Go

It took me months to forget you, to get rid of you in my heart.

I tried everything from ignoring you, your calls, your messages. But damn it, none of them worked. You just seemed to creep your way back into my heart and crush it again.

What did I see in you anyway? You’re just a typical guy. Nothing special, just average. Maybe you had your way of capturing my heart, making me head over heels in love with you.

I don’t know what has gotten into me back then, but I fell for you, your charms, your sweet words. Well, who can blame me? I’m a girl, and I’m a sucker for sweet talks.

Every time you’d tell me you love me, my heart would start racing. My mouth forming a smile. Every time you’d hold my hand, the world becomes a blur in my eyes. I guess I could say you were my first love.

I remember very vividly the time you first confessed to me. You were being an ass that day. You were irritating the heck out of me. You’d keep bugging and teasing me. You were such a nuisance. Then out of nowhere, you held my hand and suddenly pulled me to your side. You handed me a note and told me to read it. It read, “I like you.” I looked at you, bewildered. I told you “Nice one dude, you really got me there.” I rolled my eyes and shoved it back to you and walked away. You came running next to me and told me you were serious. I just stared at you with disbelief. You kept telling me over and over again that it wasn’t a joke. I replied with a shrug.

A month passed. You weren’t kidding. You really did like me, but I was still unsure of my feelings for you. I only met you my Junior year and I’ve grown close to you, like my guy best friend. I could easily talk to you.

You weren’t afraid to show or express your feelings. You were very vocal about it. Not even a month later, I started to fall for you.

We started off okay, like a normal couple would. But still, I was confused. What were we exactly? You didn’t actually ask me to be your girlfriend. You just told me you liked me and showed it. You acted like one, but I didn’t know what our status were. As a girl, I’d really appreciate it if I was labeled as your girlfriend.

I didn’t bother asking you about it. Things were going good for the first 3 months. Then we had some problems. We were on and off, we had a very unhealthy relationship.

We both wanted to fix the problem and so we did. But I’ve noticed, things weren’t the same anymore. You were a bit odd. Turns out, you’ve gotten tired of me.

It hurts, it broke my heart. Just when I’ve really, really fallen for you, you broke my heart.

Right after my graduation, you called me and asked me to meet you outside. So I did. You stood there, with a stuffed animal. It had a cap and it was holding a diploma. “Congrats, I’m sorry I couldn’t come.” I ran over to you and gave you a hug “It’s okay. Thanks.” Then you took me out to lunch to celebrate.

I thought we were okay again, we were back to normal? A month later, you sent me a message. “I’m sorry nerdy, but I don’t think this will work anymore. -Your nerd.” My heart dropped. What was this about? I didn’t know what to think or do. Tears sprang in my eyes and nearly a second later, it cascaded down my cheeks like a waterfall. I cried and cried until I fell asleep.

What kind of guy would break up through a text? How stupid could he be! He could’ve had the decency to break up with me in person not a text! You stupid idiot! I hate you! These were the thoughts I had that time. I hated you, I wanted to punch your pretty little face. I wanted to yell at you for breaking my heart just like that.

The following months were heartbreaking. I’d usually cry at night or cry when I talked to my best friend. I was lucky to have her by my side, giving me advice and comforting me.

After our break up, I saw you. You gave me a nod and I gave you a faint smile. You tried talking to me but I kept ignoring you. I wanted to distance myself from you, from the hurt you’ve caused me.

After that first encounter, I’ve gotten better. I stopped crying at night and I stopped thinking about you. When I saw you a couple times again, I didn’t have that feeling of wanting and hating you anymore. It was simply gone. I guess, with the help of my best friend, I’ve gotten over you.

When I heard you moved on with another girl, I was happy for you. I never thought that the day I’ll be able to move on was that soon. I was happy and relieved. I was finally over you.

So this is how it feels to be finally over you and, after what seemed to be forever, I’m happy again.

It took me long enough to realize that you’re just not worth a single tear, not worth my time, and definitely not worth my love. I shouldn’t linger in the past, I have to move on. My life doesn’t end just because you’re no longer part of it.


                                                                      This story was sent to me by my friend in Hawaii
                                                                                          From "MiMi"

My Bestfriend

This letter was sent to me by a friend of mine through email. Let us read his story. Be inspired to his story.

          I've tried my best to remove this feelings that I have for me to forget her face on my mind and her precious name in my heart but as I force myself to forget all about her, I'm slowly killing myself. I love her for no such reason. I want to see her face even just for a moment of her smile because seeing her smiling is the reason for me to live and love her endlessly.
          She is my best friend. i could not believe that I fall to her. She was a neighbor and a childhood friend whom  I later considered as my best friend but those ordinary expectations turned to something different. something extraordinary, a special feeling that touched the depth of my heart. Before this all happens, I was attracted to someone else, she's my crush, a dear to me. I dare to share this kind of feeling I had for my crush to my best friend. i let her saw the picture of her. I never saw any hint of jealousy on her face, so I thought that I was perfectly okay with her. I don't know what made my best friend so special to me. i just knew that when my best friend told me that she got a boyfriend, I became jealous. On that time, my feelings for my crush had deeply vanished. All I knew was.. I was hurt, hurt by my best friend's revelations. I shed tears that night, tears of solitude. Since then, she hardly spent time with me. She stopped hanging around with me visiting at our house where we used to enjoy others company. She always with her boyfriend's barkada and this really bothered me. I would be hypocrite if I say that I don't love nor like her. Now i am totally in love with my best friend. My best friend who is now committed to someone else. I was in pain. I'm facing the hard task of mustering the confidence and courage to reveal my love for her. But then her cousin told me that she will be leaving and I don't know the reason why she had to do that. I felt the pain inside of me, thinking that she will be leaving without knowing my true feelings for her. "That her best friend loves her quietly, all this time"
          How I wish i could tell her everything..
         How I wish she could love me too..
          But how? I'm just her best friend. I fear that she cannot accept me, the feelings that I had for her that she will think that the friendship we had is full of pretending.Come what may, my love will always be there for my bestfriend. Never would I think that in love, there is a side from a happy one to a lonely ending.
          I'll always be waiting, longing for that day.. the right time, the right place when all that I feel will be revealed to her.

The Spirit of Love is Timeless

Watch out for this video that I made for all of you. Thank You

John 14:6 "Jesus said unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No man can come unto the father but by me."

The promise of God to his people is eternal life so we must believe in him, and accept him as our savior. god will guide us, will teach us and must especially will give us perpetual life in heaven.

The Withered Love

When I met you, my heart started to dance

My soul is living with gladness

and my mind is full of inspiration

That's why I love you, I give you my salutation

Even though I'm too far to comfort you

Still my heart is beating only for you

i may not touch your hands when you're sad,

but I will touch your heart to make you glad.

When the seed that we planted began to wither,

you decided to go and leave me unaware

but by vigilance I gave to that seed

and walk away, and begin to secede.

Sometimes I question why it did not grow

And give my life with full of sorrow

I dont have any option but to plow

and started a new seed for me to sow.

I hope one day you'll come back to me

because my love is only with thee

I will not question why you leaved me

but to thank you that you've become a part of me.

This inspired me a lot. I cried when I watched this because I see myself to them. They are just proving that they can dance even the parts of their body is incomplete.

Trust is our Weapon

 Trust is our Weapon

As I walked through the journey of my life,

I surpassed those struggles with strife

I crossed the deep narrow oceans behind

And leaved them with lessons in my mind

Sometimes, we cant realize that all things work for our good

That no matter how hard that trial, we should not refuse

Because He will carry you when you cant carry on

Just believe in yourself and you'll never be alone.

Trials are not the reason for you to be sad,

trials are not the reason for you to lose hope

and trials are not the reason for you to give up

but to motivate and to fight to keep it up.

Life is not unfair because this is a gift

never put it down but you must lift

because life is the product of trust and belief

that you must manage and you are the chief

Do not ask why this things are done to you

Do not ask questions why challenges are always with you

but to thank the Almighty that he gave you another chance

to continue your battle for one more chance.

Pslam of the Week

Matthew 13:38 "The Field is the world, the good seed are the children of the kingdom but the tares are the wicked one".

If you believe in God and you accepted him as your personal savior, you will be living with him eternally and those who doesn't know God will be put to an endless fire called Hell. Just be a good seed to another because He is always watching us.

Who Am I

            The physical attribute doesn't count on how you judge a person. thus, you must see the pureness of his/her heart and intention, that's how I describe myself as a person.
            I am a person who knows how to fight my rights as an individual. Rights in the sense that nobody could belittle me nor destroy my reputations. I am earsplitting but deep inside my heart measures my capabilities to love people wherever I am. Even-though how provocative I am, still i'm not cursing people nor a gold digger but to love and accept them as my brothers and sisters. I am also jolly and cheerful. Behind my happiness and joy  hides my emotional trap in my heart. Im the person who wants to experience true love, who will accept me and love me for who I am but I cannot question anything about it. Life is very unfair for me. Why am i always experiencing so much trial?why always tears and pain? I just bear in mind that whatever happens to me, everything has its own purpose. To add more, I am a person who knows how to share my opportunities to others. If i already feel that God gives me a bountiful blessings, I know how to think others concern. In the other hand, music gives me a self satisfaction. Playing an instrument is such a gift from above.i am good in dancing and sing some of my favorite songs. i know that whatever I have now that God given to me, I will treasure it for a lifetime.
           My life is an echo, It gives back to what I had given. Who am I now will be who am I forever. i will never forget those good things in my life. I shall not want them to be buried in the ground but to develop them so that I can use them in the future.

        

Pslam of the Week

Proverbs 3:5, " Trust in the Lord with all thine hearts and lean not in thy own understanding".

Whatever you do,whatever trials that come into your life,just trust all to God and he will give you the best solution out of our problems in life. He works all for your best not for the worst.

Just Trust Him

Just Trust Him

          Have you experiences calling God but he is not answering your call? Do you ever wonder why he did not answered you? Are you puzzled why in times you are losing your hope, he does not want you to touch the ground?

          I know, many people doesn't believe the power of prayers and they are asking why the things happening around them is full of tragedy and misfortune. According to Jeremiah 33:3, "Call unto me and i will answer thee, and show the great and mighty things which though has knowest not". In that passage in the bible,  I believe that God is present because we can always find solution to our problem even though we find them hard and tough. There are answers to our prayers but not all of them are answered in just a wink of our eyes but instead, they will be given at the right time. We also sometimes question our self if  if God is hearing our cries and if he is helping us in our down moments. Remember, he never leave's us and he will carry us when we can't carry on. Don't question god because he is true. Don't question why there are times that you are down, that sometimes you cannot feel his presence, that sometimes he let us experience pain and trials because he wants us to learn some lessons in his given challenges. He is watching over us, watching that you are fighting and you can overcome this struggles that he has given you. Always remember that everything that happens has its own purpose and bear in mind that all things works for our good, all things that is given is for the best. There are people who cannot remember God when they are happy, when they are wealthy and famous. They can't think that this things are given by him and they can't even say a little thanks for the blessings that he has given.This people do not put God in their hearts. they are like dictionaries  that if you want to look at a certain word, they will just consult it without using it.
           Just put on mind that praying is the pathway for us to communicate to the Almighty. No crooked lines, and no charge. the only ingredient when you pray is our Faith unto him because through faith, we are saved. just trust in him with all your heart and lean not in your own understanding.

Behind Happiness is Weakness

       

             I know how to accommodate things in order but there is a sudden grief that nobody can solve it. I've tried it sometimes but it's hard to let the pain release that the only option is to let him free. I used to cry and i think the world is beneath my shoulder and I tell to myself that I'll never give up even he made me live in misery. Whats wrong with me? Don't I really deserves to be happy? or it's just my illusion?
             Actually, I'm happy to my state of living but love drives me crazy.Is it tough to assert what I'm feeling?. Yes it's true. Okay I''l narrate. This days, I've felt something special for him. I admit that I'm not perfect to say that he has feelings for me too but I have weakness that could be able to loose my turn and rejected. I effort a lot so that my love for him becomes meaningful and I guess it will be done in a nice tract. This love seems a sacrifice for me in a case that I rather divide myself into two for a reason not to escape but to give time for him. I'll go with the music, am I martyr?. Sometimes, reality bites. I pity myself for sure if in case he will leave me and be never come back for a reason to find his love and destiny.I do really abhor myself, worthless and useless. How can I solve the puzzle of my heart if there are some spaces left?
             Now, it is clear for me the definition of love. Love is unexpected that's what I've felt. In fact I'd learned how to love him despite all the struggles around us. I just bear in my mind that they are not my lost. Do what they want, blowing in the wind is such their job.

My Only One

My Only One

    The first time I saw u

    I got attracted with you

    They say I fall in love with you

    But I always say,"that's not true".

                                                    

     But the truth is I really like you

     Now. I'm sure this is already true

     But why? Still I can't say

     I can't find the right way

                                                          

     Until one day I saw you with another guy

     To myself, I felt pity

     Deep inside my heart I felt guilty  

     That I can't accept you have already somebody

     But even though I feel a lot of pains

     My love for you still remains

     Whatever happens, even my heartaches

     Your my only one, no matter what it takes

     I think its not too late

     I promise, i'll still be here to wait

     Still waiting you to love me too

     And my love will stay only for you

                                                                                                                By: Dhemie Agustin

In Your Name I Glorify

                                                                In Your name I Glorify

When my heart is filled with grief,

You carried me with your mighty hands

When I was on sorrow I became weak,

You gave me strength to face the coming day

At times I am worried and hopeless,

You are with me and utters that I am blessed.

And now my soul is filled with happiness

and recognizing your sacrifices and gladness

Thank you for the tower of your endless love
Thank you for the blessings that came from above

      Thank you for fetching me in times of trouble

     And your name must be exalted and notable

You walked with me at the see of darkness

You lifted me by the virtue of your goodness

You comforted me in times of my weakness

that makes me trust by your righteousness

In your name I shall glorify

Praise and worship you in the sky

Please do not leave me all the day

On your presence, God I will stay

                                                                         -EAM-

In Your Name I Glorify

comming soon!!!
This poem is dedicated to all people who loses hope because of those struggles that are happening in their life.
I would like to inspire everybody.